Thursday, October 23, 2008

I'm feeling much better right now!

I posted earlier how I was struggling pretty bad with my depression and I wanted to update you all on how I'm doing. The past almost 2 weeks I have been working out daily (except Sunday) and journaling my food and I have noticed and increase in my happiness. Not that it "makes me happy", but I feel better. I know we have all been told that exercise gives us a "natural high" and I'm here to say I know it does. Am I so bubbly that I'm annoying even myself? No. But I can get through the day without wanting to give up. I'm enjoying being a mom again. I just feel better. So that's where I am right now. I just needed to post and keep record of my feelings, that way if I have a depression slump again I can look and see if there is a trend. I'm hoping if I keep up my exercise habit I will be able to better cope with things as they come at me.

The exercise program I started is POWER 90 (thanks Travis and Katie!). It is workable into any schedule. It's 40 min or 30 min a day (depending on what you are doing that particular day). I told myself last week (my first week on) that if I could just work out 5 days I didn't have to do the 6th day, but I woke up on Saturday and WANTED to exercise! CRAZY!!! Do I jump out of bed and say, "YEA!!! I get to exercise right now!!!" HECK NO! But I do feel good once I've done it! I've also been counting my POINTS again. I'm not going to post my journals because that is a lot of extra work for me in my BUSY life right now, but I am working on keeping them. I have my first measurment day on Nov 7th and I will post how much (if any) inches lost and how many pounds I have lost. Hopefully I will lose through this! I already feel much stronger than I have in awhile, so if anything I will just feel better. But I'm hoping to "be a perfect 10" by the time we go to Disneyland in Dec. That's 8 weeks of doing this. I don't know if I'll get there, but it is something to work towards! So I will post here off and on about what I'm doing. So thanks for all you who check it out and if you are on your own weight loss journey, I wish you the BEST of luck!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

So Funny...

I love comics that pertain to weight. My mom-in-law just sent me this one today.

Friday, September 26, 2008

My Battle...

My biggest battle I've been fighting lately is my battle with depression. I've been a bit overwhelmed with all I have chosen to take on and have been struggling to find my "me time". I used to hang out with my friends a bit more, scrapbook, and just hang... but with my new schedule I don't have time for any of that anymore and it's really starting to wear on me. I just needed to put this in writing so I can see if I see a pattern of when my depression surfaces and see if I can find a way to battle it without meds. I had it under control awhile back. Maybe it's just all I have taken on lately... I'm not sure. I also have AF visiting, so maybe it's linked to that. I'll see... but for now I think I need to just take some time to do something I enjoy without being stressed the whole time. I think tomorrow I'm going to bake. It's "Good Neighbor Day" this weekend, so maybe I'll do something nice for my neighbors and maybe my spirits will be lifted with service.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

OK... so I'm caught up now!

I have been so ultra-super-busy lately... but not so busy I couldn't count points. I just haven't had time to post my food journals every night. I'm just too tired once I get to stop for the night, so I haven't posted. But as you can tell from the posts below I've been chugging right along. I actually feel really good right now. I haven't stepped on the scale yet this week (yea me... I usually have to check my weight everyday!!! OCD...) But I have just been conscious about what I put into my mouth. If you notice I eat the same thing all the time (one thing... leftovers from dinner...). But I notice I do better when I eat the same things and with my schedule so crazy with piano lessons/school/mutual, if I can make something I can eat on the way I'm doing good. Next week I'm going to try for some diversity in my menu. Maybe I'll make a menu up and post it here. That might help me feel just a little bit motivated to try something different. I'm really glad that I am doing this again. I feel better already and I know I can get to the place where I can be the happiest with my body. Not that I'm unhappy right now. I know I look a whole lot better than 3 years ago from now, but I know where I want to be and I know I can get there if I just try. I don't want maintenance to be hard, so I'll see what I can do. I enjoy just maintaining without stress (it helps me a lot). I look over this past year and know I've done a great job. Now if I can just get to my personal goal by Christmas, that would be the best Christmas present I could give myself. Maybe then I will buy myself some new jeans! OK... enough rambling from me... off to post on my MainBlog and Get ready to go sign-up for the next semester of school! Wish me luck!

Wednesday's Food Journal...

Aiming for 25 POINTS
Breakfast-
nada...

Lunch- 7
Roast beef wrap (3)
Cheetos (4)

Snack- 5
2 plain cupcakes (3)
few licks of frosting (2)

Dinner- 8
Tortilla (3)
1/2 c. lean hamburger (3)
1/4 c. shredded cheese (2)

Snack- 8
Fro yo (3)
Topping (5)

Exercise-
treadmill (burned 600 calories)

Activity POINTS earned: 6
Total POINTS Eaten: 28 (used 3 AP's)

Tuesday's Food Journal

Aiming for 25 POINTS
Breakfast-
nada...

Lunch- 7
Roast beef wrap (3)
Cheetos (4)

Snack- 8
Fro yo (3)
Topping (5)

Dinner- 10
Tortilla (3)
1/2 c. lean hamburger (3)
1/3 c. shredded cheese (3)
FF refried beans (1)

Snack- 5
Fro yo (3)
Waffle Cone (2)

Exercise-
treadmill (burned 600 cal)

Activity POINTS earned: 6
Total POINTS Eaten: 28 (used 5 AP's)

Monday's Food Journal...

Aiming for 25 POINTS
Breakfast
nada...

Lunch- 6

Roast beef wrap (3)
Doritos (3)

Snack- 4

Shredded Wheat (3)
Skim Milk (1)

Dinner- 10

Tortilla (3)
1/2 c. lean hamburger (3)
1/3 c. shredded cheese (3)
fat-free refried beans (1)

Snack- 8

Fro Yo w/ topping (8)

Exercise

walking & callanetics

Activity POINTS earned: 4
Total POINTS Eaten: 28 (ate 3 AP's)

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Sunday's Food Journal...

Day 2 Back on Track...

B: nada... I didn't wake-up until almost 1030!!! YEA!!! I needed sleep!

L: Broccoli and Cheese Soup (4)
9 Saltines (2)

D: Shredded Wheat (3)
Skim Milk (1)
Cheetos (4)

S: More Saltines (3)
Frozen Yogurt w/ Topping (8)

Ate a total of 25 points (right on target)

My goals
Journal: Oh- yeah!!!
Exercise: nope- it's Sunday
Callanetics: nope
Water: YES!
8pm: Nope... 9pm, but I had to eat 8 more points to finish off my day...
And I posted! YEA!!!

I'm feeling better all ready! I keep telling myself if I keep to my points this week (through Friday) I get to not stress on Saturday (SCRAPFEST!!!) So I'm going to keep going!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Saturday's Journal...

Breakfast: nada

Lunch: Roast Beef Wrap (3)
Wheat Thins (3)
Cottage Cheese (2)

Snack: Reg Fro Yo w/ topping (8)

Dinner: 6 in Roast Beef Sub (6)
Bite of soup and 2 Sun Chips (1)

My Goals
Journal: yes
Exercise: nope...
Callanetics: nope...
Water: YES!!!
8PM cut-off: yes
Send journal: yes (I posted)

OK... so I haven't journaled in awhile, but I'm back now! YEA me. I have set myself some goals and I really want to reach my goal by Christmas, so wish me luck and here I go! Biggest Loser starts again Tuesday (you can watch the first hour of the premiere here). I think this is what is giving me the motivation to do this and get back on track. It will be 3 years since I started losing weight and wouldn't it be great to be at my final goal (65 lbs gone) in that time. I feel great that I've maintained for the past year... but there is a part of me that wonders where I would be if I would've just followed program a little better this past year... but I can't think about that. I need to focus on the here and now and be grateful that I have maintained for this past year. OK- so you can see my goals and one of them is posting my journal here, so I will hopefully do it everyday! OH- my first goal is to lose 10 lbs... my WI (weigh-in) is on Friday. So I will let you all know how I did come Friday. And I'm a scale obsessed person, so I will not step on the scale until Friday. Wish me luck with that one! OK... I'll post again tomorrow!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

OK...

So my birthday weekend is turning into my birthday week... maybe I'll journal after this weekend. I always do this to myself, but that's OK... this is life and I have to live it and make my decisions. And right now I decide to enjoy my week... even if the scale is up a lb or 2. Gotta say though, I did get up and mow the lawn and sweep & mop my house yesterday, so I am moving during all of this. But tonight a few friends are taking me out for Applebee's appetizers after school and tomorrow (my ACTUAL b-day) is pedicures and lunch and then this weekend... well I will tell you all about that after it's over! So anyways... Monday morning I'm going to start a new plan and really get this going again. "Life" shouldn't get in the way too bad after my birthday week is over (well... life ALWAYS is getting in the way, but I really want this and I think (OK, I KNOW) I will make better decisions after my b-day)... wish me luck and until then... HAVE FUN!!!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Wed/Thurs Food Journals

Wednesday's Food Journal...
Breakfast- 4
Chex Mix Turtle Bar (2)
couple bites of a pastry (2)

Lunch- 8
roast beef wrap (3)
1/2 c. cottage cheese (2)
wheat thins (3)

Snack-
nada... doing homework all afternoon

Dinner- 8
Taco Bell bean burrito (8)

Snack- 8
fro yo w/ cookie dough (8)

Water: enough!!!
Exercise: I walked the zoo this morning with two 3-yr-olds. I pulled them in a wagon (off & on) for 2.5 hours
That's 6 AP's

Total Points Eaten: 28 (25+3 AP's)

Thursday's Food Journal...
B: nada...

Lunch- 12
shredded wheat w/ skim milk (4)
fro yo w/ heath bar (8)

Dinner- 7
roast beef wrap (3)
applesauce (1)
wheat thins (3)

After-school Snack- 6
Pretzels (2)
rice krispie treat (2)
chex mix bar (2)

Water: enough...
Exercise: I went to work for 3 hours (walking around a warehouse scanning and gathering orders... lots of walking and squatting!) I gave myself 7 AP's

Total Points Eaten: 25

I'm taking today (Friday) off counting. AF visiting, so I want french fries and a Dr. Pepper! So I'm getting it for lunch! I will probably not post much this weekend (my birthday weekend... notice that it's not just a day for me... no... I celebrate all weekend. I would celebrate all month, but maybe that's going too far! heehee) so hopefully all will go well this weekend and I'll be back on Tuesday!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Food Journals...

OK, I didn't post yesterday's food journal, so here are the past 2...


Monday's Food Journal
Breakfast- 1
Slice of bread (1)

Lunch- 3
1/2 roast beef sandwich (3)

Snack- 9
fro yo w/ cookie dough (8)
applesauce cup (1)

Dinner- 9
2 torillas (3)
1/4 c. lean hamburger (2)
1/3 c. shredded cheese (3)
Fat free refried beans (1)

Snack- 8
fro yo w/ cookie dough (8)
(thanks my friend Fawn.... I really needed that "comfort food")


Water: enough!!!
Exercise: I actually hit the gym- burned 562 cal!!! That's 5 AP's (and I used them all!!!)

Total Points Eaten: 30 (25+5 AP's)

Tuesday's Food Journal...
B: nada...

Lunch- 3
1/2 roast beef sandwich

Snack- 8
fro yo w/ cookie dough (8)
(I'm seriously addicted!!!)

Dinner- 7
Lean Pocket Sub- mozz & meatball (5)
Salad w/ dressing (1)
Applesauce cup (1)
Peaches cup (0)

After-school Snack- 5
Pretzels (2)
fro yo- no topping (3)
(yea, I save a ton of points if I don't eat the topping, but seriously, the cookie dough... YUM!!!)

Water: enough...
Exercise: nada... just walking kids to/home from school

Total Points Eaten: 23 (didn't hit my target... that's OK)

OK... now I gotta go read a Biology book! What FUN!!!

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Sunday's Food Journal...

Breakfast- 4
19 pc. shredded wheat (2)
3/4 c. skim milk (1)
Small banana (1)

Lunch- 6
Roast beef wrap (3)
Doritos (3)

Dinner- 9
Lasagna (5)
Garlic bread (3)
Salad w/ Italian dressing (1)

Snack- 6
Reg frozen Yogurt (3)
Some Heath bar topping (3)

Water: about 90 oz.
Exercise: nada... It's Sunday!!!

Total Points Eaten: 25

Day one back on track... I did it! So this next weekend is my "birthday" weekend, so I'm going to work hard all week to stay on so that I can enjoy myself this weekend. D-backs on Friday night, Sunday dinner & yummy dessert on Sunday night and you can't forget Labor Day... we are going swimming and I'm hoping to have the YUMMY (not so good POINTS) Oriental Chicken Salad... hummmmmm... so YUMMY!!! OK, so I'm going to journal all day this week... go me. It will be good, the day I struggle the most is Thursday, and I have school that night, so that should help some! Wish me luck for tomorrow!

Hips don't lie...

10 Food Fibs That Make You Fat
By Sophie Pachella

When Pinocchio lied, his nose grew. When you lie to yourself about your diet, it won't be your nose growing.

1) I deserve it
This is a classic example of self-sabotage. Exactly what do you deserve? Blown progress? Thicker thighs? Self-medicating with food is a learned behavior, which invariably leaves us feeling miserable. Instead, establish a food-free reward system such as indulging in a good workout, or new pair of running socks. Work on progressively altering the feeling that food soothes. The numbing effect is fleeting at best but the consequences sadly linger.

2) I've saved calories from skipping breakfast.
Not so. In fact, nothing could be further from the truth. Skipping breakfast lowers your metabolism meaning that the next meal you eat (famished) is far more likely to be stored as saddle bags. Skipping a healthy breakfast doesn't give you free license to gorge on chips and dip before lunch. Some appetizers run 1500+ calories. Eat regularly and consistently to keep your blood sugar level and temper temptation.

3) It's free!
Hardly. The 500+ calorie free bagel at the office costs you $80 with your trainer just to get back to square one. Furthermore when food is free we settle for sub-par standards. Stale? Picked over? Bring it on! Ask yourself if you'd shell out the money to eat the item. While you're at it - pop $1 in a jar each time you skip free food. At the end of the month treat yourself to a healthy reward.

4) It would be rude to refuse
Never have two issues been as frequently confused as food and love. When a co-worker, mother or friend offers us food, we feel compelled to accept even when we're not hungry. If this situation occurs frequently make your case clear: rather than repeatedly turning down food state your intention once, firmly and politely and ask for your efforts to be supported. In circumstances which require a little more finesse, graciously accept while insisting you're already full and are only having a bite because "it looks divine". If you announce your intention, you're less likely to then polish off of the entire slice of pie.

5) It's not the same without [popcorn, hotdog..]
If an event requires food to distract you, go home. It can't be that entertaining. Our behavior at the movies is quasi-Pavlovian. So use this to your advantage: create a new habit, and work on making it stick. Bring your own air popped popcorn to the movies or better yet, take pride in proving yourself you can survive two hours (gasp!) without food. Once you've established a new habit, you can draw upon that behavior the next time and repeat it until it becomes the new you.
6) Supersize and save!
$1 extra for a vat of coke and side of chips... why not? Because your goal isn't to load up on as much food as possible, that's why. Food isn't scarce. If you pay full price for half the portion, enjoy the fact that you're treating yourself right. Pay more for less you. Now that's a bargain.

7) It would be wasteful not to.
Call me cheap, but this is my downfall. Throwing food away doesn't come easily; apparently I'd rather use my tummy as a trash can. How many times have you finished what's on your plate in a restaurant because you paid for it, even though it didn't taste particularly good or ate a tasteless protein bar because it cost $3.50? The "children are starving" mantra haunts us, but we fail to recognize that shoveling in the last few bites won't help anyone. Note to moms: stop this manipulative tactic immediately. It's a terrible precedent to set. Overeating is just as wasteful (in a far more damaging manner) than throwing leftover food.

8) But it's a party, we've got to celebrate.
Is every get -together an excuse to eat? Food is fuel, not a party trick. Focus on the conversation and company, rather than the caterer. You might meet someone nice, which beats a pig in a blanket.

9) Just this once won't hurt...
Actually, yes it will. The devil is in the details. 100 calories a day translates into an additional 10.2lbs a year. Your body is the most accurate computer ever made: while you might choose to pretend the sneaked bite never occurred, your metabolism won't let a single calorie slip by. Rather than working on excuses, channel your energy into testing whether "just this once" you can pass the temptation by. The pride you gain is immeasurable.

10) It's too complicated/expensive to eat right
When we're feeling particularly lazy, this little fib sounds plausible until we weigh the cost of an apple and yogurt ($1.50) against a bag of chips ($1.50). Echoing Fib #3, think how much you'll save by eliminating the need for another training session to melt away a pound of fat grown as a result of "cheap decisions". Inexpensive healthy snacks are abundant. Make a list of your 20 favorites, and refer to it when feeling thrifty.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Another Blog...

I decided to start a blog just for the reason of keeping me motivated in losing weight. I have pretty much maintained my weight (within a few pounds of my WW goal) now for 1 yr (YEA ME!!!), but I would really like to finish losing the last 20ish pounds on my body.

So I'm going to post my...
Weekly weigh-in's
My food journals (hopefully daily)
My stuggles
My successes
My favorite recipes I use
...And anything else I think I need to post!

So come join me on my journey. If you need some motivation, I hope you can find it here! And if you enjoy motivating others, I will take all the motivation I can get!!!

You see the site name of my blog (beaperfect10), well, Chuck came up with that name for me because that is my ultimate goal! And for all you who are thinking- she's already a perfect 10 (heehee)... I mean pants size! That is my ultimate goal. To me it seems reasonable for who I am and for what I want to maintain for the rest of my life. Right now I'm a 12, so I don't have much left, but it's still something!

So please wish me luck and hopefully this blog will give me the motivation to get going again and get to where I want to be... FOR ME!!!