My Battle...

My biggest battle I've been fighting lately is my battle with depression. I've been a bit overwhelmed with all I have chosen to take on and have been struggling to find my "me time". I used to hang out with my friends a bit more, scrapbook, and just hang... but with my new schedule I don't have time for any of that anymore and it's really starting to wear on me. I just needed to put this in writing so I can see if I see a pattern of when my depression surfaces and see if I can find a way to battle it without meds. I had it under control awhile back. Maybe it's just all I have taken on lately... I'm not sure. I also have AF visiting, so maybe it's linked to that. I'll see... but for now I think I need to just take some time to do something I enjoy without being stressed the whole time. I think tomorrow I'm going to bake. It's "Good Neighbor Day" this weekend, so maybe I'll do something nice for my neighbors and maybe my spirits will be lifted with service.

OK... so I'm caught up now!

I have been so ultra-super-busy lately... but not so busy I couldn't count points. I just haven't had time to post my food journals every night. I'm just too tired once I get to stop for the night, so I haven't posted. But as you can tell from the posts below I've been chugging right along. I actually feel really good right now. I haven't stepped on the scale yet this week (yea me... I usually have to check my weight everyday!!! OCD...) But I have just been conscious about what I put into my mouth. If you notice I eat the same thing all the time (one thing... leftovers from dinner...). But I notice I do better when I eat the same things and with my schedule so crazy with piano lessons/school/mutual, if I can make something I can eat on the way I'm doing good. Next week I'm going to try for some diversity in my menu. Maybe I'll make a menu up and post it here. That might help me feel just a little bit motivated to try something different. I'm really glad that I am doing this again. I feel better already and I know I can get to the place where I can be the happiest with my body. Not that I'm unhappy right now. I know I look a whole lot better than 3 years ago from now, but I know where I want to be and I know I can get there if I just try. I don't want maintenance to be hard, so I'll see what I can do. I enjoy just maintaining without stress (it helps me a lot). I look over this past year and know I've done a great job. Now if I can just get to my personal goal by Christmas, that would be the best Christmas present I could give myself. Maybe then I will buy myself some new jeans! OK... enough rambling from me... off to post on my MainBlog and Get ready to go sign-up for the next semester of school! Wish me luck!

Wednesday's Food Journal...

Aiming for 25 POINTS
Breakfast-
nada...

Lunch- 7
Roast beef wrap (3)
Cheetos (4)

Snack- 5
2 plain cupcakes (3)
few licks of frosting (2)

Dinner- 8
Tortilla (3)
1/2 c. lean hamburger (3)
1/4 c. shredded cheese (2)

Snack- 8
Fro yo (3)
Topping (5)

Exercise-
treadmill (burned 600 calories)

Activity POINTS earned: 6
Total POINTS Eaten: 28 (used 3 AP's)

Tuesday's Food Journal

Aiming for 25 POINTS
Breakfast-
nada...

Lunch- 7
Roast beef wrap (3)
Cheetos (4)

Snack- 8
Fro yo (3)
Topping (5)

Dinner- 10
Tortilla (3)
1/2 c. lean hamburger (3)
1/3 c. shredded cheese (3)
FF refried beans (1)

Snack- 5
Fro yo (3)
Waffle Cone (2)

Exercise-
treadmill (burned 600 cal)

Activity POINTS earned: 6
Total POINTS Eaten: 28 (used 5 AP's)

Monday's Food Journal...

Aiming for 25 POINTS
Breakfast
nada...

Lunch- 6
Roast beef wrap (3)
Doritos (3)

Snack- 4
Shredded Wheat (3)
Skim Milk (1)

Dinner- 10
Tortilla (3)
1/2 c. lean hamburger (3)
1/3 c. shredded cheese (3)
fat-free refried beans (1)

Snack- 8
Fro Yo w/ topping (8)

Exercise
walking & callanetics

Activity POINTS earned: 4
Total POINTS Eaten: 28 (ate 3 AP's)

Sunday's Food Journal...

Day 2 Back on Track...

B: nada... I didn't wake-up until almost 1030!!! YEA!!! I needed sleep!

L: Broccoli and Cheese Soup (4)
9 Saltines (2)

D: Shredded Wheat (3)
Skim Milk (1)
Cheetos (4)

S: More Saltines (3)
Frozen Yogurt w/ Topping (8)

Ate a total of 25 points (right on target)

My goals
Journal: Oh- yeah!!!
Exercise: nope- it's Sunday
Callanetics: nope
Water: YES!
8pm: Nope... 9pm, but I had to eat 8 more points to finish off my day...
And I posted! YEA!!!

I'm feeling better all ready! I keep telling myself if I keep to my points this week (through Friday) I get to not stress on Saturday (SCRAPFEST!!!) So I'm going to keep going!

Saturday's Journal...

Breakfast: nada

Lunch: Roast Beef Wrap (3)
Wheat Thins (3)
Cottage Cheese (2)

Snack: Reg Fro Yo w/ topping (8)

Dinner: 6 in Roast Beef Sub (6)
Bite of soup and 2 Sun Chips (1)

My Goals
Journal: yes
Exercise: nope...
Callanetics: nope...
Water: YES!!!
8PM cut-off: yes
Send journal: yes (I posted)

OK... so I haven't journaled in awhile, but I'm back now! YEA me. I have set myself some goals and I really want to reach my goal by Christmas, so wish me luck and here I go! Biggest Loser starts again Tuesday (you can watch the first hour of the premiere here). I think this is what is giving me the motivation to do this and get back on track. It will be 3 years since I started losing weight and wouldn't it be great to be at my final goal (65 lbs gone) in that time. I feel great that I've maintained for the past year... but there is a part of me that wonders where I would be if I would've just followed program a little better this past year... but I can't think about that. I need to focus on the here and now and be grateful that I have maintained for this past year. OK- so you can see my goals and one of them is posting my journal here, so I will hopefully do it everyday! OH- my first goal is to lose 10 lbs... my WI (weigh-in) is on Friday. So I will let you all know how I did come Friday. And I'm a scale obsessed person, so I will not step on the scale until Friday. Wish me luck with that one! OK... I'll post again tomorrow!

OK...

So my birthday weekend is turning into my birthday week... maybe I'll journal after this weekend. I always do this to myself, but that's OK... this is life and I have to live it and make my decisions. And right now I decide to enjoy my week... even if the scale is up a lb or 2. Gotta say though, I did get up and mow the lawn and sweep & mop my house yesterday, so I am moving during all of this. But tonight a few friends are taking me out for Applebee's appetizers after school and tomorrow (my ACTUAL b-day) is pedicures and lunch and then this weekend... well I will tell you all about that after it's over! So anyways... Monday morning I'm going to start a new plan and really get this going again. "Life" shouldn't get in the way too bad after my birthday week is over (well... life ALWAYS is getting in the way, but I really want this and I think (OK, I KNOW) I will make better decisions after my b-day)... wish me luck and until then... HAVE FUN!!!