Confessions...

- it's been forever since i posted
- things are not going well in the weight loss area
- i have put back on 30 lbs
- i have been completely addicted to "liquid sanity" (aka dr pepper) for too long
- but i have not had a "liquid sanity" in 4 days now (what a record!)
- i have been on "happy pills" for 6 months now and cannot give them up
- i guess "happy pills" are one of my addictions
- i'm stuggling losing weight and wonder if it has anything to do with my meds...
- i want to get back in my clothes... seriously 10-15 lbs would do it for me!
- i want to be happy and thin... but it feels like i'm going to have to choose b/w fluffy and happy or thin and miserable!
- i can put on a great face in front of others
- i love to have my hair and make-up done when going out... i feel so much prettier!
- i hate cleaning... but love a clean house
- i hate homework... but love good grades
- i hate dieting... but love being thin
- i love yummy foods... but hate being fluffy
- i love to bake... especially cakes and cookies
- i love to eat what i bake... and cakes and cookies are not good for my figure!!!
- i love food...
- i love to play...
- i love card games...
- i love catan...
- i hate repeating myself...
- i don't like plain water...
- i flavor water with sugar free flavors...
- i love microbiology... germs are interesting
- i don't enjoy a lot of the things i use to enjoy... blogging, scrapbooking... so sad
- i wish there were more hours in the day, just so i could get more sleep
- i hate the mornings
- i'm a night owl
- i love disneyland... and am going there soon
- i wish that certain things would come easy to me
- i love gno!!!
- i love pedicures... cute toes are always fun!
- i hate online school
- i love to go to class and learn... makes my brain function, in a different way
- i love hospitals
- i hate the gym/working out... but i feel so much better when i do exercise!
- i wish i was naturally skinny... but then i would have another flaw i would hate...
- i really am happy with who i am... but then i start thinking about what the world thinks
- i should really stop thinking about the stupid world and just be happy!
- i think i am a fun person to be around
- i'm finding this very healing!
- i think i need to do this more often when i get down on myself
- i'm karalyn melser... and i love me!!!