I better go to bed...

... I'm super hungry!!!

Good morning!

And yes it is!

I feel like I did good yesterday.

Although I didn't count POINTS yesterday,

I did write down everything I ate

AND I even passed up

birthday cake and icecream!

Wow... a first for me!

So all in all it was all good!

I even had an emotional night

and I didn't fix it with food.

I know I have a long way to go...

but this is a good start.

I'm fed up...

I'm starting fresh with everything I have done in the past to lose weight!!! I've done it before, I can do it again! There is no reason why I should have gained weight back!!! Well... I know the reason I gained it back, but what I'm trying to say is I know better. But now that I realized it is my meds that made me do this... but not in the sense of I had no control over it, but in the sense that I was finally enjoying life and being happy with me... and it wasn't dependent upon my weight. So I ate lots of yummy, not good for me food and have been slowly adding the pounds back on. They just snuck up on me... I didn't realize it until just recently. I mean, I knew my jeans didn't fit anymore, I knew my tummy wasn't so flat-ish anymore... but it wasn't until I saw some pictures of me taken by someone I realized my face wasn't thin anymore!!! So then I took some pictures of me exactly like the ones on my sidebar at goal weight... and I'm fat again. But I'm in control again. The first step is to realize the problem and now I can move forward. So starting today (11 yrs since becoming a mom) I'm taking control once again and I'm off on my journey. This is for me... and for my family (but mainly for me). So join me on my journey. I will be posting here often. Yummy menu ideas, my exercise routine, my ups and downs (b/c we know there will be plenty of those), and anything else I feel like sharing!!! So... not b/c I want to, but here are my updated pics of me right now. I won't be like this forever... I will lose it again, and then keep it off forever!!!

PS- no... I'm not pregnant... I'm just fluffy!

PSS- and as for my liquid sanity... not giving it up, just having it in moderation! I enjoy it too much!

Starting Over...

My weight loss journey...

I have been slowly gaining weight

and I'm not happy about it right now!!!

So tomorrow is a new day...

my new life (once again)!!!

I'll keep you posted...

My ultimate goal...

get back to my goal weight...

My first goal...

get back into my jeans in 8 weeks!

Weekly goals...

So last week my goal was to give up my "LiQuiD SaNiTy!!!" And I have been successfully off it for 9 whole days (once i shut my eyes tonight it will be 10!!!). I'm so proud of myself. I almost caved on Saturday, my my BFFF talked me out of it... she told me I didn't really need it... and she was right! I'm still here and ALIVE!!! (And so are others around me, so I must be OK!)

I decided I hate dieting, right? So I have a plan... one that started last week with giving up my DP. I'm choosing one new "healthy habit" every week to incorporate in my life. So this week it's exercise. For the past 2 days I have gotten up, got the kids to school and then I pop in my DVD and workout. I got a "Walk Away the Pounds" DVD for Christmas and I have never opened it... until Monday. And I LOVE IT!!! It is super fun! I look forward to working out now. So here's to my goal of the week.

How about any of you?

What do you do to "live a healthy lifestyle" without dieting?

Confessions...

- it's been forever since i posted
- things are not going well in the weight loss area
- i have put back on 30 lbs
- i have been completely addicted to "liquid sanity" (aka dr pepper) for too long
- but i have not had a "liquid sanity" in 4 days now (what a record!)
- i have been on "happy pills" for 6 months now and cannot give them up
- i guess "happy pills" are one of my addictions
- i'm stuggling losing weight and wonder if it has anything to do with my meds...
- i want to get back in my clothes... seriously 10-15 lbs would do it for me!
- i want to be happy and thin... but it feels like i'm going to have to choose b/w fluffy and happy or thin and miserable!
- i can put on a great face in front of others
- i love to have my hair and make-up done when going out... i feel so much prettier!
- i hate cleaning... but love a clean house
- i hate homework... but love good grades
- i hate dieting... but love being thin
- i love yummy foods... but hate being fluffy
- i love to bake... especially cakes and cookies
- i love to eat what i bake... and cakes and cookies are not good for my figure!!!
- i love food...
- i love to play...
- i love card games...
- i love catan...
- i hate repeating myself...
- i don't like plain water...
- i flavor water with sugar free flavors...
- i love microbiology... germs are interesting
- i don't enjoy a lot of the things i use to enjoy... blogging, scrapbooking... so sad
- i wish there were more hours in the day, just so i could get more sleep
- i hate the mornings
- i'm a night owl
- i love disneyland... and am going there soon
- i wish that certain things would come easy to me
- i love gno!!!
- i love pedicures... cute toes are always fun!
- i hate online school
- i love to go to class and learn... makes my brain function, in a different way
- i love hospitals
- i hate the gym/working out... but i feel so much better when i do exercise!
- i wish i was naturally skinny... but then i would have another flaw i would hate...
- i really am happy with who i am... but then i start thinking about what the world thinks
- i should really stop thinking about the stupid world and just be happy!
- i think i am a fun person to be around
- i'm finding this very healing!
- i think i need to do this more often when i get down on myself
- i'm karalyn melser... and i love me!!!

Wow... It's been 2 months!!!

OK... so I haven't blogged on here for awhile... and that means I have done nothing for weight loss in that time as well. I have been struggling with my journey. I think the meds I'm on play a role in that. But I'm happy and patient finally. And I'm OK with who I am! I am KaraLyn Melser... a fun-loving girl! (And I have a pretty good brain too!) No I'm not trying to brag, I'm learning we all have strengths in our lives and I'm learning what my strengths are. I may not be able to be super thin, but I have other strengths that make me who I am.

So I started another blog! But this one is private and only open to actively participating members. It's called "GOALden Girls". It's set up specifically for the support we need to achieve the goals we set forth for ourselves. We are there as a support group for each other... without having to find the right day and time to meet up. This way wherever you are, you can join in. When you join you will become an author and you can post your weekly goal and give support to other girls who are in need of support. This group is not just about weight loss though. It is about everything in life that makes us feel good about ourselves. It's about setting goals to become a better person... whether it be weight loss, spiritual, household, organizing life... you get the idea. If this is a group you were looking at joining, leave me a comment with your e-mail address and I will invite you to be an author.

Oh- and one last thought... this is a girls only blog... sorry boys!!!